I really like having this blog. I like having a place where I can just vent. I also want to be able to just share things that are going on in my life. I am at a place in my life where I am starting to realize my age...lol.
I had my first real serious boyfriend twenty years ago. I wasn't allowed to date until I was 16. I met this guy in my neighborhood while I was still 15. I would walk my dog just so I could see him. On my sixteenth birthday I was finally allowed to go out with him. We dated for close to three years. I thought at the time that he was going to be the one I married. I dated him until after I was out of high school. We went through a rough spell and never recovered. I have recently re-connected with him and been able to work through a lot of what happened. I am so glad that we can be friends now.
I am going through alot right now and I am not sure how to fix things. I know that I would like to get a life back for myself. Don't get me wrong, I love my family and wouldn't trade them for anything. However, I have lost myself these last few years. I rarely get out of the house and when I get a chance, I have nothing to do or anyone to call to do stuff with. I am not sure what happened or where I lost myself. I am trying to rediscover myself but it seems like that is hard to do right now. I am going to keep trying though.
I am doing better with our diets around here. We all seem to be losing weight. I know that some of my clothes are fitting better. I just wish I could lose some of this belly fat. The drugs I was on for several years put alot of fat in that area and now I am fighting to get rid of it. I have cut red meat to a bare minimum and we eat alot of fish and chicken. I have also switched us to wheat pasta and whole grain bread. Sugar is barely used now as well. I am trying to do anything I can to help get G's glucose levels down and help us all lose weight.
I am also thinking of moving to Florida and trying to find a job. We have friends down there and they said lil G and I could come down and stay with them for awhile and look. I am seriously thinking about it. I don't know what else to do. It would be alittle crowded there, but we could all help each other.
Well, I am sure I will blog again soon about things...Until then...
