A bit of everything.....

I really like having this blog. I like having a place where I can just vent. I also want to be able to just share things that are going on in my life. I am at a place in my life where I am starting to realize my age...lol.

I had my first real serious boyfriend twenty years ago. I wasn't allowed to date until I was 16. I met this guy in my neighborhood while I was still 15. I would walk my dog just so I could see him. On my sixteenth birthday I was finally allowed to go out with him. We dated for close to three years. I thought at the time that he was going to be the one I married. I dated him until after I was out of high school. We went through a rough spell and never recovered. I have recently re-connected with him and been able to work through a lot of what happened. I am so glad that we can be friends now.

I am going through alot right now and I am not sure how to fix things. I know that I would like to get a life back for myself. Don't get me wrong, I love my family and wouldn't trade them for anything. However, I have lost myself these last few years. I rarely get out of the house and when I get a chance, I have nothing to do or anyone to call to do stuff with. I am not sure what happened or where I lost myself. I am trying to rediscover myself but it seems like that is hard to do right now. I am going to keep trying though.

I am doing better with our diets around here. We all seem to be losing weight. I know that some of my clothes are fitting better. I just wish I could lose some of this belly fat. The drugs I was on for several years put alot of fat in that area and now I am fighting to get rid of it. I have cut red meat to a bare minimum and we eat alot of fish and chicken. I have also switched us to wheat pasta and whole grain bread. Sugar is barely used now as well. I am trying to do anything I can to help get G's glucose levels down and help us all lose weight.

I am also thinking of moving to Florida and trying to find a job. We have friends down there and they said lil G and I could come down and stay with them for awhile and look. I am seriously thinking about it. I don't know what else to do. It would be alittle crowded there, but we could all help each other.

Well, I am sure I will blog again soon about things...Until then...

Good things are coming, I just know it...

Well, what can I say? I guess prayer works. I have had a couple things happen over the past week that have helped big time. I asked for prayers and thoughts and it has happened. I still need prayers and thoughts, but at least things are looking up.

I am still trying to find work. I am not sure what I am going to do. I did appeal the unemployment decision...again. It is now with the board of review. Hopefully they will see the truth to the matter and go ahead and approve it. That would be awesome and would help so much. We should hear something soon...Here's to hoping.

I am also hoping to hear good news on another matter. I can't say much about it right now, but I am hoping to hear something good soon.

I would also like to say how much I enjoy facebook. I have been able to reconnect with so many people. I am also able to stay in contact with people I know and don't get to see very often any more. I wish I could see these people more. I want to have a get together but I am not sure who would even show up. I have let my life and friends get away from me. I am so sorry that I have let this happen.

I miss having people to talk to. I miss having people to visit. I miss having adult friends. I love my family, don't get me wrong, but sometimes you need friends.

I am still planning on having a girls night out or a get together of some sort. I hope I can make this happen soon.

I still need the prayers, so don't forget. Til next time.....

What am I going to do?

Wow, could anyone else ask for something I just can't give? I hate checking the mail because of all the bills. If I don't get my unemployment or a job soon, I think I will drown in all the debts. I am hoping to hear from the company that I did a first interview with.

My car is broke down and I don't know how I am going to fix it. The part we think we need is around $200 and we aren't really sure how to get it off the car anyway.

My dog had her puppies tonight. She only had four, thank goodness. I will finding them homes in about six weeks.

I am hating sitting around the house. I feel so helpless and hopeless. I hurt my back, so this last week has been a bit tough. I can't even go to the doctor because I have no insurance. My house is a wreck, I guess I know what I will be doing tomorrow.

I guess I am ranting a bit. I needed to get it out. I am sorry for those who hate sob stories. I don't mean to be so down this time around.

I am trying to stay positive though. I know things have to get better at some point. I know that at some point, something has to give. I know that eventually I will be able to have the girls night out that I am wanting to have.

You guys just keep us in your thoughts and prayers. My next post will be brighter.

Ready for a new week...

I can't believe the weekend I have had. I actually had someone to watch my son both Friday and Saturday nights. That just doesn't happen...It's not easy to get someone to watch him one night. I actually went out. I got to see some friends that I haven't seen in a long time. I was hoping to see more people but due to circumstances that only they know, they never made it.

I think my son needed a break from me anyway. We have been together a lot since I lost my job. I hope this break helps him this week.

We will be starting another week of homeschooling. Things have been going pretty good so far. This week we will begin working on writing and some new subject matter. I think two weeks of review is enough.

I did something this weekend I haven't done in a very long time. I bought a dress and wore it out. I know it sounds silly, but I have never been a dress girl. It felt nice, looking pretty. I think I lost myself somewhere and I am starting to rediscover myself. I'm sure this will be an interesting journey. I think this blog will help with that too.

For now just remember that if you are always living for the future, you will never get there. The past is done and can't be undone. Today is a gift, that is why it is called the present...Live each day as if it were your last.

Argh!!!!!!

What a crock...the state denied my unemployment again...My former employer did not even participate in the hearing, they even told the lady that they were not contesting it. I just don't understand. I am going to appeal it again. Maybe third time will be the charm.

I did get a call from a job I applied for, an initial interview I guess. It seemed to go well. I am keeping my fingers crossed and prayers said. I would enjoy this job too.

My husband is doing better, finally. We have managed to get his blood sugar down some. Still alittle high, but better than it was. We are learning what to and not to eat. It is going to be tough, but we can do it.

I am getting back in touch with friends from my past, recent and further back. I love hearing how everyone is doing. I hate that I lost touch with so many people. I hope that I will be able to meet up with some of them soon.

I guess I am kinda rambling on but felt the need to update a couple of things today. I will let y'all know how things are going soon.

Where to begin...

These past couple of days have been a bit crazy. I don't even know where to start. I had my appeal hearing for my unemployment benefits Monday morning. They contacted my former employer and the manager said "We aren't contesting it". Then when asked if they were refusing to participate in the hearing, He said that is correct. What the heck? I am hoping that this works to my benefit and I finally get approved.

Then yesterday afternoon I had to meet with my attorney over an hour away. My car began acting crazy and on the way home...It shut down. I was about half way home and had to call for help. We guessed it to be the alternator and once my help got there we jumped it off. We did that twice. Then the third time we went to do it, the car started smoking and sparks flew. I guess it shorted out and now I have no power at all. I had to get a tow truck to come get it. We couldn't even put it in neutral...

One of my relative was robbed this morning...It was like the guy was waiting for her. She is okay, although shaken and will probably be a bit sore.

It is only Tuesday...I am trying to save positive... It is hard right now but hopefully things will turn around and get better.

I am sure there will be more to this story...but for now this is enough...

Not what we expected

Well, where do I start. My husband has been having stomach pains for several day. Yesterday it got severe enough to take him to the emergency room. The gave him some IV fluids and pain meds. They did a CAT scan and took blood and urine. After a very long wait the doctor came in to tell us the news. He said that he couldn't explain what was causing the pain but that they had found a couple of other things. He told us that they found a nodule on the bottom of one of his lungs that could be nothing. He told us that my husbands glucose was at 290. This is way too high and that my husband has diabetes. WOW...What in the world. My husband has never had a problem with is blood sugar. He gave us some scripts and off we went.

Today we went to our regular doctor and he confirmed it. G's blood glucose was at 202, which is still too high. Now it's time for a diet and meds to help drop some weight and hopefully this will bring his sugars back under control.

Diabetes...not what we were expecting. Now it's time to figure out how to lose some weight. We are all going on a diet. I just hope we can do it.